An evaluation of church

This has been on my mind a lot lately, so I guess it will make for a good thing to talk about.

I kind of hate church. Is that bad? I'm a Christian, but church really bothers me. It's the same thing every week. There's no reason to grow. At all. None. We can't change without motion. Obviously there is something wrong if we're not moving in a direction.

That's kind of what I want. I want to move in some direction. I don't care which one it is. I'm so sick of the routine that we put ourselves in. Worship first, then offering, then a sermon. And it's the same sermon I've heard every day for all of my life. I hate that. Give me something new, dang it. I need the nurturing. I've been growing in reverse for entirely too long now. I don't say shrinking, because that isn't the word. I've been moving away, slowly but surely.

I don't want that. And it spiritually taxes me. A lot. It's hard to handle. I need a change of pace. I'm sick of taking and no giving during sermons. I want to be able to comment when I've heard something that I think is wrong. And that bothers me a bit. That's not how it's supposed to be.

I don't know. I guess I might be worrying about it a bit too much. I probably should calm down. But it's complicated.